Two things first:

1) Disclaimer: Icon artwork compliments of i_spite_thee by special request (in other words, PLEASE DON"T STEAL MY ICKLE ICON! ;) ). *pets icon* Thanks again, Spite!

2) This post may contain things that may surprise, or even shock, some people, so read at your own risk.



I don't usually put down everything in here, but I'm making somewhat of an exception this time, because I think I really need to clear my head out a bit.

The last couple of weeks, I've been in one of my more downward slumps. I seem to have gotten quite adept at hiding this from everyone, because nobody even commented on it or seemed to notice. It just seems like one thing after another was going wrong. Half of my left hand has gone completely numb, which scred me to death at first, because I just knew it had something to do with my tumor coming back. (It doesn't - the doctor finally called yesterday - it's just a pinched nerve, Thank God!),my AC kept going out in the middle of the afternoon, and, with sever thunderstorms coming in everyday, I started dwelling on just how pathetic it is that my only links to the 'outside world', as it were, are via the internet. Completely pathetic. Bleh.

I pushed all this down as long as I could, quite simply, because I had a friend who needed me and needed my support (my blasted Gryyfindor side was showing LOL), so, naturally, it was more important to be there for her. (I hope you know who you are, and that I would do it again in a heartbeat - and before you say it - YES YOU DO DESERVE IT!! :P)

I've been so horrible about updating things because of all this, and I apologize to everyone for it. I haven't been posting as much anywher (FA, AF, H4A, or ATHAM) because of it, doing more reading than anything else, trying to take my mind off things, and my fic writing and artwork is at a complete standstill. How can I write happy stuff when I just don't feel it? And I'm at a point in my fic where this sort of mood just would NOT fit well into the story.

Anyway, just when I was about to hit bottom, Lissa, who's been one of the best friends I've ever had, ever since high school (more like a sister, really) called me two days ago. How does she always know? And then yesterday, she came by, and brought DJ (her little boy) with her. It really helped a lot.

So, if I seem out of sorts, or a bit snippy, I'm sorry, in advance. Forgive me. I'm just not me 'usual cheerful self' right now. Sorry for the rant.